Everywhere we go we’re looking for the sun /
Nowhere to grow old, /we’re always on the run /
They say we’ll rot in hell, /well I don’t think we will /
They’ve branded us enough, /Outlaws of Love /
-Adam Lambert (Outlaws of Love)
songs make me want to make things, so I made an image of what the song meant to me. this means that it won’t make sense to anybody who isn’t me (…oops?) but that doesn’t bother me overmuch.
I wasn’t ever given too much trouble for being in a lesbian relationship, really, but there are little things sometimes — even in a liberal area like this — that sometimes hit me when I start forgetting that what I have isn’t universally accepted. People who talk about homosexuality as something unforgivable, that will result in divine punishment - people who take it upon themselves to mete out their own judgments and limitations to try and save me from the things they have decided will damn me. I sometimes don’t like that I have to be careful - I started dating my girlfriend when we were in our (very) early teens, and we’re in our mid-twenties and still together, and engaged, and happy, and it bothers me that I can’t just tell people that. I don’t like to think that this kind of thing makes me a bad person.
Some of the lyrics of this song, therefore, I like very much. I don’t know the specifics of what he was thinking when he wrote it, but I know what it means to me. And I like to think that I’m not going to rot in hell for loving, and that some day people like me won’t have to worry about all the legal barriers as well as the religious and personal ones when it comes to being committed and finding a place to settle down and be together.